CHAPTER 1: How I Became EROS ORISHA
EROS’ ARRIVAL♡
CONCEPT OF ‘EROS’ PERSONIFIED
THE MEANING OF “EROS”
FALLING INTO SEX WORK
MORAL CONVICTIONS
HOW AND WHY I CHOSE THIS LIFE
BACK TO MY ROOTS
THIRST FOR FREEDOM AND LAVISH LIVING
IT’S A LIFESTYLE!♡
DREAMS FOR THE FUTURE!~
EDC Las Vegas 2019: Day 1 ♡
A Caramel Bunny in its natural habitat
EROS’ ARRIVAL♡
Eros Orisha was brought to life after I had a major revelation of sexual liberation and hidden self-confidence. A younger, less confident version of myself used to think I was too awkward and “alien-like” to be considered attractive but after having a handful of life-changing experiences at raves/music festivals, I found inner-peace and stopped caring about what other people thought of me. After I began to value myself properly, everything else fell into place and I came into union with my true self. I want to let everybody reading this know that once you love yourself wholeheartedly and believe in your potential you can do anything you want in this life. Take risks, be BOLD, and stand in your power.
CONCEPT OF ‘EROS’ PERSONIFIED
Boy Next Door.
Eros was the Greek god of love, or more precisely, passionate and physical desire. Without warning he selects his targets and forcefully strikes at their hearts, bringing confusion and irrepressible feelings or, in the words of Hesiod, he 'loosens the limbs and weakens the mind' (Theogony, 120).
I chose the name Eros because I see myself as a divine, God/Goddess of LOVE, LUST, BEAUTY, and FANTASY. I have fun charming and seducing anybody and everybody I meet, it’s easy for me to make new friends and lovers wherever I end up! I’m super flirty and feminine and I tend to confuse (and sometimes irritate) those that are intolerant of androgynous beings such as myself evoking any sort of sexual attraction. It’s hard for anybody not to stare and appreciate a cosmic babe such as myself.
“Ok…and what about the ‘Orisha’ part?”
Oshún, also spelled Osún, an orisha (deity) of the Yoruba people of southwestern Nigeria. Oshún is commonly called the river orisha, or goddess, in the Yoruba religion and is typically associated with water, purity, fertility, love, and sensuality. She is considered one of the most powerful of all orishas, and, like other gods, she possesses human attributes such as vanity, jealousy, and spite.
I underwent a spiritual awakening at the beginning of 2020 and haven’t looked back since. My first delvings into the spiritual world involved me magically stumbling upon the orishas via a YouTube video introducing me to Oshún and her attributes. After much research, I concluded that Oshún is my head orisha and I am deeply connected to her energy and instantly channel her when I am feeling at one with myself. I love and appreciate how she beautifully portrays both her light and dark attributes as well as her sexuality without being branded as a “whore” or a “slut.” She’s an empowering deity and ecompasses everything I aspire to be.
I almost went with Eros Oshún but I felt Eros Orisha sounded better!
THE MEANING OF “EROS”
Eros is a mysterious energy inherent in the whole of creation, fascinating seekers all over the world. Across the cultures, Eros takes different names but still remains the same agent that has to be awakened from within, since it is the only element that can transform the human psyche.
He is the inner witness, the agent within the seeker that unfolds gnosis, or divine knowledge. This divine knowledge awakens higher levels of consciousness within him and, in turn, these levels of consciousness aroused by Eros lead the seeker back to the source of light.
The Greek mysteries relate that at the very beginning of creation, only chaos existed, and from chaos was born Eros. Elsewhere, according to mythology, we are told that amongst the gods, Eros was the most handsome. This is how theogonia (the birth of the gods) begins and we are assured that the poet Isiodos heard it from the mouth of the Muse herself. According to Isiodos, Eros represents the driving force behind the entire theogonia. The Orphics agree that Eros appears at the beginning of theogonia and cosmogonia in general, and they tell us that his mother was Night, the dark goddess, and his father the Wind. From their first cosmic and elemental embrace, Eros was born from a silver egg.
Prior to reconnecting to Eros, I was dangerously naive and had no sense of direction and didn’t know what I wanted out of life. I was constantly questioning why I was brought on this Earth and slipped into a “Dark Night of the Soul.” I had a heavy sense of distrust for authority (I still do, hehe), a rude awakening to the dark truths of life, and I was at a loss of knowing who I was and why I wanted to keep on living. What did I want to do in this life? What are my dreams? Why was I brought here? I just felt like I didn’t fit in and I had an overwhelming sense of dread and anxiety.
…After surviving a near-death experience that was induced by a nightmarish LSD-fueled series of unfortunate events, I snapped out of it. I began to come into my power and I stopped doubting myself and worrying about things that didn’t exist. I was building imaginary walls and boundaries for myself to cower around, I pulled every excuse out of the book to stay stuck and stagnant. I grew increasingly impatient and unsatisfied which prompted me to start evoking my divine masculine energy and took control of my life. Whatever I want to do, I do it. Whatever I want to wear, I wear it. Whatever I want to say, I say it. Eros was born from my desire to manifest a life worth living.
Eros Orisha is a cosmic metaphor of my life. I pulled myself out of the dark storm and emerged a hot, confident God.
After the chaos came EROS.~
FALLING INTO SEX WORK
I was fated to become a hustler. Sex work is my divine purpose.
I’ve had multiple instances in my life that have hinted at me naturally being skilled at profiting off of my sexuality.
This is sooo controversial but when I was YOUNG and MISCHIEVOUS I used to play this MMO called Mabinogi and I basically used my sexy, charming female in-game persona to receive exorbitant amounts of gold, rare items, and attention from other players. I was very tech-savvy for my age so I used to set up a chillingly convincing fake webcam and “girl voice” when my online suitors wanted “proof” that I was a REAL G4MER G!RL. This was before “catfishing” was a thing so it was easier for me to get away with such devious, deceptive tactics. This went on for a few years and I fell out with my guild leader I was scheduled to marry. It was a harsh breakup. Shortly after, I migrated to a new server and just started a fresh account free of any drama and got adopted into a very loving, generous in-game family that accepted me knowing who I really was.
They spoiled me... (;
After I graduated High School and moved from California to Las Vegas, I glew up and started seeing myself differently. I started covering less skin and going out more. I got an ICONIC Playboy Bunny tattoo. I finally felt comfortable in my own skin and didn’t feel like the socially-awkward, clumsy, bald boy everybody used to see me as. It was a true coming-of-age ceremony for me and that was the moment that I came to the realization:
“I am a bad bitch and I deserve to live like a bad bitch.”
SUGARING/ESCORTING: I started getting attention from older, successful businessmen that wanted to treat me like a prince. I went on some lavish dates and received generous payments and gifts for accompanying them and giving them attention that was difficult for them to get regularly due to their strenuous, work-heavy schedules. I would use sites like RentMen, SeekingArrangements, Grindr, etc to put up an ad and put myself out there.
LUSTY FASHION: The outfits I debuted during my first few months of raving helped me feel comfortable in my skin. Rave fashion is generally very “CAMPY” and allowed me to wear the naughtiest outfits I wanted in dance-heavy spaces filled with the most loving and accepting people you’ll ever meet! I believe Eros’ fashion sense derived from the endless amount of body-positivity I developed from my positive experience wearing provocative outfits at these events which led me to confidently adopt a sexy visual fantasy for Eros to slay. Eventually I began wearing these outfits for my adult content and I really felt right at home when I began modeling for the camera.
ANIME/ECCHI: I used to watch a lot of anime growing up. Some of my favorites being “SHUFFLE!”, “The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya”, and “Rosario + Vampire” which all had a lot of fun, sexual elements that I found both entertaining and visually appealing. I was most attracted to the characters that owned their sexuality and used it to their benefit on their own terms. I also remember a LOT of the sexual innuendos were done tastefully and in a stylish way. The rapey stuff creeped me out tho.
HYPERSEXUALITY: I’m naturally a horny MF and always have been for as long as I remember. It’s probably just some sort of genetic imbalance.
PORNSTAR DEBUT: It all happened so fast. I started my OnlyFans in January 2020 and it’s been steadily growing since my debut. I’ve been having so much fun making content for my Lusties and they have always been there for me. I am in the top 25% of all creators at the time of me writing this.
MORAL CONVICTIONS
Personally, I don’t understand why sex workers are always put under a moral microscope. It makes no sense to me.
Sex is a GIFT FROM THE UNIVERSE.
Sex should be celebrated. Sex is powerful, fun, and universal. It’s the one thing that (mostly) everybody has enjoyed since the dawn of time.
It’s NATURAL.
If sex is so harmful to society then why is it embedded in every aspect of society, whether it is blatant and “IN YOUR FACE” or not?
Sex sells, doesn’t it?
Sex work has been more openly embraced in various ancient societies thousands of years ago yet somehow we’ve regressed to vile amounts of slutshaming, a lack of proper sexual education, and the criminalization of sex work itself.
The notion that “SEX is perfectly acceptable… as long as it’s not being used as a means of profit” is extremely outdated and unnecessary.
Why can’t consenting adults do as they please? ):
“There will ALWAYS be a SUPPLY and DEMAND for sex work.”
My heavenly OnlyFans subscribers sending me fanmail!
These declarations of LOVE always brighten up my day.♡ (:
As you can see, I love what I do and nothing will stop me from being proud of my artistry.
SEX WORK IS WORK.
Look how HAPPY it makes people!
HOW AND WHY I CHOSE THIS LIFE
Here are a few main reasons why I don’t want to work a regular job:
I was tired of being broke and working for pocket change at big corporations that only saw me as a number
I was tired of working 40+ hours a week for a barely livable wage
I was tired of getting up every day to work at a job I had no compassion for whatsoever
I was tired of being a slave to my power-hungry managers and rude, problematic customers
I was tired of NOT having a healthy work/life balance
and MANY more…
Here is why I’d rather be a sex worker and deal with the stigma from society:
Sex work is lucrative $$$$$$
Sex work is diverse and offers many different avenues of success to EVERYBODY
Sex work is evolving rapidly with technology
Sex work is empowering, stimulating, and challenging
Sex work allows me to work LESS for MORE
Sex work has the WARMEST COMMUNITY EVER.
BACK TO MY ROOTS
I’ve always been my own boss since I was a cute little caramel bunny.
My most cherished childhood memories were selling lemonade and making bank to buy the latest installments of Pokémon and Animal Crossing.
The entrepreneurial BOSS BABE energy has ALWAYS been present within me.
I LOVE MONEY. $$$
THIRST FOR FREEDOM AND LAVISH LIVING
I write in my manifestation journal every day that I will live on my own terms and live a bountiful life of leisure and luxury.
(I’m a Libra moon and Capricorn rising sooo it makes sense!)
I will live in my perfect dream home and be on my own schedule.
I will be financially stable and have more than enough.
I will have everything I’ve ever desired and more.(:
IT’S A LIFESTYLE!♡
In order to be successful, it’s important to not view this as a means to make a profit but as a lifestyle that people pay you to live.
Do not take this as me saying you should devote your entire life to sex work. It’s not healthy or practical to put all of your eggs into one basket, however, if you really hone in on what it means to treat sex work as a lifestyle you will naturally and readily accept the abundance that is meant for you.
This is essentially a 24-hour job and you must constantly communicate with your own fanbase and the SW community, keep your body and mind healthy, constantly create new content, and market yourself effectively.
Hustlers work 24/7!♡
DREAMS FOR THE FUTURE!~
I’m a natural leader so I will be owning my own luxury GAY strip club/bar to represent my community and provide a safe space for my people.
I will develop my own skincare line.
I will become a GoGo dancer.
I want a degree in psychology. (Sex workers make phenomenal mental health professionals.)
I will be a fashion idol. I want to travel the world and become a world-class model.
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DJ EROS - I will produce my own EDM.ღ ƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ♡ƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ♪
Thank You For Reading EROS ORISHA’s Origin Story.
If my story inspired you in any way please let me know!
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I’d love to hear your success stories.
