Lonely

— 11:30 P.M. PST Las Vegas, NV

I’m lonely tonight. Being an only child, keeping my circle small, and being a pornstar with high standards and low expectations for the men in the dating scene...it gets so lonely.

I feel like I’m destined to wait a long time for my soulmate in this life. I’m constantly told I must be patient, and that what’s meant for me will come when I’m ready to receive it and when it’s in alignment for me. I’m constantly growing and self-reflecting .. every day. I wish I could have a sign that the things I desire are coming to me soon.

Work has been a bit slow in terms of studio work, but that’s totally fine with me, I know I’m on the right path and my brand is growing each day. I can’t wait to slow down a bit and relax in the fruits of my labor.

I’m meeting with a FWB of mine on Sunday in the Afternoon/Early Evening. We’re going to have intense sex for hours, cuddle, nap, eat, and watch movies. I’m excited to see him again and bond with him.