SINGLEMAXXING

DEAR DIARY 📔

Goddess Era 🌚🪽

I really was so into this guy but he kept liking other girls’ posts on Instagram and not even liking any of mine. He doesn’t even text me consistently or check on mex I’ve concluded he doesn’t deserve access to me and he doesn’t show me enough consideration, care, or respect.

I deserve somebody that only chooses me.

I’m way too kind, thoughtful, and loving to settle for somebody that doesn’t see me. Sometimes you have to accept that certain people don’t have any intention of prioritizing you or loving you the way you need to be loved. Singlemaxxing for the time being is going to be fun and I’ve picked up so many hobbies I will eventually turn into businesses so I have a lot of work to do anyway so I don’t have time or energy for a partner (although I could definitely make room for it if I wanted to)…and this is a great reminder that if they WANTED to THEY WOULD.

The main reasons why I really want a relationship is so I can have somebody to protect me and share the beautiful moments of life with me. I feel like having a consistent person that I trust in my life is better than still being available and meeting new people.

I’m so gorgeous and I am really cool, but I’m learning to gatekeep myself! I’ve been in an era of isolation and solitude. I’ve probably been so antsy because I’ve barely been communicating or interacting with people so I’m clinging on to the few connections that I do make and even though they have chemistry that doesn’t mean they’re right for me, or that they have the capacity to value me properly, or that they’re compatible with me.

My makeup and hair has been improving like crazy!!! I mean – there’s nothing else for me to do so I’ve just been having fun experimenting with my beauty routine. I’ve also been optimizing my work station and it’s soo comfortable!

I’m very ready for my move back to California. There are so many adventures for me to go on with or without somebody by my side.~ I’m ready! But all of this prep work is exhausting in the best way and I’ve been grinding to eliminate all of my debts and to save so I can have somewhere comfortable to land once I’m finally there. I’ll also make sure not to move any guys in too soon if it ever comes up. Getting help on rent and groceries would be so nice but I’d be a fool if I let a cheater or a dangerous violent abuser stay with me and ruin my sanctuary.

If you’re looking for a sign to let go of an attachment you know isn’t pouring into you the way you deserve, here it is!~ 🌊

Goddess Eros has spoken.