“Gate-Keeping My Body.”

I’m so happy ever since I decided to stop entertaining meaningless, hollow hookups. These weirdo men that don’t appreciate me or my complexities don’t deserve to experience me, especially if they aren’t paying anything. I only engaged in some (while they physically felt good, ultimately were very disappointing) casual encounters after my separation to ease the pain of betrayal. The validation felt good, and I didn’t regret the act, however, the risks (STDs, Stalkers, Serial Killers, etc) highly outweigh the pleasure I received. I’d rather wait for an encounter that’s more meaningful and deep, like one that I had shortly after the D-Day of my betrayal with a crush of mine that I’ve been crushing on for a while. He has always been so sweet to me, and since he visited Vegas, we were both drunk off Tequila and our deepest desires to experience each other surfaced almost immediately. I’ll never forget that night. It was such a monumental self-esteem booster! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧ A reminder that I can have anybody I want. THOSE are the casual encounters I crave, because there are layers and a buildup of emotions that lead up to it. It’s much more intense and primal.,

“The joy of not hooking up lies in the freedom it brings to explore deeper connections and self-discovery. By stepping away from casual encounters, individuals can cultivate authentic relationships that prioritize emotional intimacy and mutual respect. This intentional approach allows for a greater appreciation of personal values and boundaries, creating space for meaningful conversations and shared experiences. Ultimately, the absence of fleeting interactions fosters a sense of empowerment, encouraging one to focus on personal growth and the fulfillment that comes from nurturing lasting bonds.”